I'm new to this, have always written, but old skool, in a diary... with recent events in my life thort maybe id try blogging. Ive got some things to say about my story...and I cant sum it up in less than 500 words... so read on if you like...I started this in Oct 2009 when ACC swept the rug from under me. Thanks. * (My claim under ACC is a Sensitive Claim, which is for victims of Rape and Sexual Abuse)
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Sunday Star Times Article
Rape victim: ACC cut my lifeline
By TIM HUME - Sunday Star Times Last updated 05:00 16/05/2010
Photo by Phil Doyle
Last month, an Auckland mother died after her claim for ACC-funded counselling was rejected under ACC's new 'clinical pathway' for sensitive claimants. But many existing ACC clients claim they are also having their counselling for sexual abuse terminated. One multiple rape survivor tells Tim Hume how having her therapy discontinued has pushed her to the brink, and why she is speaking out to call for changes to the way abuse victims are treated.
The worst part is the nightmares. "Getting raped every single night when I go to sleep. I can only sleep for 45 minutes before I wake up screaming," says Danielle Martin. "I've got a hammer in my bed. If I knew it was going to be like that every night for the next 30 years, I'd kill myself."
The 32-year-old was first raped when she was 16. The attack happened at Red Beach, north of Auckland. Her attacker was known to her and she says he had a serious drug problem. As she ran from the scene, he chased her to the side of the road and laid into her with his boots.
A private-school girl who had been going through a tearaway stage after becoming estranged from her family, Martin took refuge in a caravan park. A few weeks later, her attacker tracked her down, tied her up and held her hostage for 38 hours, subjecting her to all kinds of indignities.
"He cut up or destroyed everything I owned: clothes, photos. He was burning me with knives."
Martin eventually escaped by pleading to be allowed to do her park-cleaning duties, then running to the home of the managers, but not before the man had made a cut on her throat and threatened to kill her and her family if she told anyone.
She didn't, trying instead to forget and move on with her life, and eventually got a job at a bar in Auckland's Viaduct. But after a staff party one night, when she was 18, she was drugged and raped by one of the regulars. She remembers only brief flashes of what took place, but the attack left her with lasting physical injuries.
Her trauma went untreated and unacknowledged, and the subsequent years were filled with depression, addiction, nightmares and self-harm until she finally sought help from a counsellor. In October 2000, her claim as a rape survivor – a "sensitive claimant" – was accepted by ACC, entitling her to heavily subsidised counselling.
At first, the counselling had limited success. She went through about 20 counsellors and psychiatrists without feeling comfortable divulging or addressing the trauma at the core of her issues.
"I never felt safe or made that connection," she says. Life was hard, sometimes unbearable. As a result of the attacks, she had chronic post-traumatic stress disorder and major depression, conditions which constituted a disability and made it extremely difficult to leave the home, use public transport, or maintain social links.
But in the past two years she established a connection with a regular counsellor and a psychiatrist, who allowed her to finally "get into the grit" of her trauma. She made what her psychiatrist called "slow but significant progress" and began to study for a counselling degree.
This was all reversed in October when, out of the blue, Martin received a call from her ACC case manager telling her that her twice-weekly sessions with her counsellor were to come to an end.
In November came a letter: "We're pleased to tell you we've approved your decision for a final 20 sessions. Please note there will be no further counselling sessions approved."
Martin was devastated. "I've been suicidal as a direct result of this."
ACC senior medical adviser Dr Peter Jansen said that while Martin and her psychiatrist might have felt she was making progress with her present regime, the opinion of ACC's experts was that "the long-term counselling has created a dependency that has been counter-productive".
He said Martin had already had 280 ACC-funded counselling sessions. One of ACC's expert assessors, through an assessment which included a review of her case history, determined she would be better off at Segar House, a mental health treatment centre operated and funded by the Auckland District Health Board.
"We want the right care so that people recover from their injury."
Martin, who has had trust issues and finds it difficult leaving the security of home, felt she was incapable of undertaking the programme at Segar House, which has a group therapy component and would involve revisiting the trauma of her rapes with new counsellors.
Her psychiatrist agreed and wrote in a letter to ACC last month: "Since having funding for this intervention discontinued, she has in fact deteriorated significantly – is currently in fact more severely unwell than when first seen but is not accessing any care or follow-up other than that provided by her GP."
Martin said she had been "revictimised" by ACC, which had taken away her lifeline. "I don't have anybody I can talk to about this," she says. She has been calling mental health crisis helplines just about every day but they are not equipped to properly help.
During a recent call, after she woke up hyperventilating from a nightmare, she was advised to take a walk around the block.
"Rape is the ultimate form of powerlessness, the ultimate form of having your choices taken away. And I've been kept in the dark and given no options," she says.
"Therapy helped. My quality of life was improving, my prospects, my ability to be cohesive with other people and my chances of being a productive member of society. I've gone from having some semblance of a normal life ... [to being] a rape victim with worsening symptoms and no help."
Since her counselling was discontinued, Martin has made her blog publicly accessible and has been tweeting about the ordeal, including messages to the prime minister's account. (She received no reply).
"If I'm dead next week, I need this documented," she says. "I've done the right thing. I've been really honest with my treatment providers. I've worked really hard, I've stepped out of my comfort zone to get well. I can still potentially have a really good future. But they're not going to do the right thing unless they're shamed into it."
David Wadsworth of Access Support Services, who is advocating on Martin's behalf, said her case was symptomatic of ACC's "assault on sensitive claimants". "If ACC can get out of any funding of sensitive claims claimants, they'll do it by hook or by crook, as I see it. And they're really the most vulnerable group."
The corporation's new "clinical pathway", which required new clients to be diagnosed with "a significant mental injury" before their applications for sexual abuse counselling could be accepted, had seen the number of sensitive claims approved drop from 472 in the first two months of last year to just 32 in the same period this year. Last month, an Auckland mother died four days after her claim for counselling was rejected.
Meanwhile, many longer-term sensitive claimants were being subjected to reassessments of their treatment regime, which saw them pushed off ACC-funded counselling into DHB-funded programmes.
"They're leaving the claimant high and dry. Four months down the track the person hasn't had any counselling. It's caused a lot of damage to them. They're essentially being retraumatised," Wadsworth said.
Jansen said perceptions that ACC was turfing long-term claimants off counselling regimes to cut costs were incorrect. However, until recently, ACC had been funding treatment for many people who weren't covered by the legislation or weren't getting appropriate treatment.
"If the community is concerned that people are exiting from ACC, my concern would be that they exit because they are recovered."
For regional Rape Crisis help line numbers visit www.rapecrisis.org.nz
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Hi Danielle, I read this article and my heart goes out to you. I only wish acc would have a heart! Or even a brain!! Hang in there, sweety. I know there is a good life around the corner for you. I have been in a similar but not identical situation to you, and it was worth hanging on, I'm glad I did, and it will improve for you too. PS thanks for your blog.
ReplyDeleteBe strong dude. And make good choices- do stuff that makes you feel good, and stay away from stuff that makes you feel bad. Wish I could hug you in person. There's many of us out here in your situtation (I'm not going through hell with ACC- I'm working and paying a chunk of income for my own therapy- but I do think a lot about people in your situation, and I think about those who are in prison and mental health wards that never get proper treatment for PTSD). One day at a time girlfriend, one foot in front of the other,- just make good choices- one good choice leads to another and then good opportunities will eventually come your way).
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I'm thinking that perhaps after 280 sessions with little progress, ACC might have have had a bit of a point.
ReplyDeleteDear Anon.
ReplyDeleteComments like yours do more harm than good. What's the bet you tell depressed people to get over it, too. A recovery like D's is like grief - we each heal at different speeds. To put your uneducated 2 cents in shows you lack both compassion and common sense.
Shame on you. Seriously. Shame.
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ReplyDeleteDear Cate,
ReplyDeleteThe point, which you have overlooked, remains that 280-odd counselling sessions have seemingly not had a marked effect, although there has been some improvement over the past 2 years.
Why is it harmful to suggest that given the lack of progress through counselling perhaps it might be better to look at other options?
Because my view differs markedly from yours hardly makes it 'uneducated'.
Dear Anonymous,
ReplyDeleteAs a psychotherapist I am always amazed when people make clear value judgements about "how long treatment Should take." Generally the public doesn't question medical treatment, or doctors, but seem very keen to place judgement on the emotional healing professions. I can only assume you wouldn't venture to have an "opinion" about how to remove a tumor...
What is very clear from Danielle's case is that ACC cut treatment based on clinical opinions of ACC staff having reviewed only paperwork, and that this was in direct contradiction to the clinical opinions of those actually treating her and seeing her regularly. Contrary to your somewhat random assertion that it wasn't having a marked effect, she was in fact getting better.
Fact is the absence of treatment, and subsequent detoriation proves the effectiveness of treatment.
Kyle MacDonald.
(It's easy to be controversial and anonymous at the same time, why not try signing your name to your opinion.)
Dear Kyle,
ReplyDeleteNever let it be said that I don't find it equally easy to sign my own name to my opinions.
Does the absence of treatment and subsequent deterioration prove the effectiveness of said treatment or point to a dependency?
While more recent treatment might have shown definite progress, what about the bulk of the earlier sessions? The article states that D went through 20 counsellors "without feeling comfortable divulging or addressing the trauma at the core of her issues". That doesn't strike me as a stunning endorsement and, quite frankly (later results notwithstanding), I'm surprised ACC did not discontinue the sessions earlier.
Anyway, kudos to D to allow dissenting points of view on her blog.
Paul / Anonymous / whoever you are.
ReplyDeleteI know we are somewhat comparing apples with oranges here. We give people years of therapy after car accidents to get them walking again. Yet we question the same period of psychological therapy.
Shouldn't we be doing everything in our power to give people the support and treatment? If the progress of the treatment is slow so be it. As long as it gives people hope and gives them a chance of a better life I feel that is a worthwhile investment.
Anyhow enough of this slagging and running people down and lets help instead.
Dear Paul/Anon
ReplyDeleteThe reason I believe you're uneducated (in this area) is because the FIRST thing you're told when studying or undergoing councelling is that you can not put a timeframe on healing. The mind is so complex. It's not like a broken bone - pop a cast on it and if you can't see exact steps towards healing, you take path B.
Perhaps a little more reading on the subject of surviving sexual trauma would help you understand that the journey is very much one day at a time, and that judgements about one's recovery only cause pain.
So brave of Danielle to tell her story. I am so sorry for all you have been though and all you are continuing to go through. I don't understand why Paul (above) feels says you have had no real improvement? Does he know you? Of course, there has been HEAPS of improvement (or you wouldn't be telling your story in main stream media) but there is still a long why to go.
ReplyDeleteAnd 280 sessions, at 2 a week is only a couple of years. Does he have any understanding about Complex PTSD or Borderline Traits??? Such a 'ODD' and 'UNEDUCATED' opinion to conclude.
You should be really proud of yourself for how far you've come. This is a terrible thing to happen to you and it's incredible that you're not being treated with respect by ACC. But regardless of that, the way you have managed to push on through every single day is astonishing and I'm truly amazed at your strength. It takes a lot of guts to do what you're doing and you should be commended for your efforts with raising awareness, standing up for yourself, and unconditionally carrying on in the face of your struggle. You've played your hand right. Keep it up.
ReplyDeleteA few years ago I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression, and received a course of treatment. It was recommended that I attend a mens group as well as sessions with a councillor. Maybe I was told, but when my councillor told that I had one session left, I can still remember the feeling of panic that went through me.
ReplyDeleteSo now, like many other people out there, I take the pills and hope that I can cope as best I can. Every so often my dose gets increased.
None of this makes your situation any better, of course. However it does point to the fact that when mental health is left to the mercy of the politicians, there is a cost.
I've been amazed at your courage to speak out, and can't say I'm surprised at the official responses you got.
During my treatment I talked to a victim of a vicious assault, received in the course of his duties as a psychologist. Years later this victim was still recovering, and still seeking help. And he was a professional.
Years earlier I talked with a street person when I was living in Los Angeles. He took off his filthy shirt and showed my friend and me the physical scars received as a prisoner of war in Vietnam. He sat in the gutter and cried and cried.
A few years prior to that I talked to an elderly couple. Both were sole surviving family members of their respective families after the Holocaust in Europe. Events from forty years before still haunted their lives.
When the powers-that-be finally realize that there is no magic number at which you can say people are cured, then maybe people like us will receive the kind of assistance we need. It's easy to sit in an office and make important life-changing decisions in the margins of someone else's life.